Those Type A Blues.

“Type A Personality”: A temperament characterized by excessive ambition, aggression, competitiveness, drive, impatience, need for control, focus on quantity over quality and unrealistic sense of urgency.  It is commonly associated with risk of coronary disease and other stress-related ailments.

I have ALWAYS been 1,000% that prototypical Type A person, overcome with OCD and anxiety, aka a ball of stress.  So, it’s no surprise that I operate best under high pressure – big projects, tight deadlines, and lots and lots of stress.

I’m that person who saves those perfect notebooks for years, packing them from old home to new home, over and over again, because they were too good to make mistakes in; that person who saves her favorite purses and shoes in the closet, wearing them only on the most special occasions.

I struggle daily, on this tightrope, between neurotically calendar blocking every minute of every day for the entire month, and laying in bed binge watching the entire season of 13 Reasons Why.  Still, at any given moment, I have a massive and unrealistic to-do list replaying in my head, over and over again.

Since I’ve been out of school (for two years now, holy shit), it’s only getting worse.  I’m either stressed because I have too much to do and I’m working too much, being productive AF, or I’m stressed because I have too much to do, but I’m relaxing, and I’m not crossing off items on all those to-do lists fast enough.  The first step to solving any problem is to acknowledge that you have one, right?

They say that you can lead a happier life by repeating a mantra to yourself.  I’ve been trying to figure out the perfect mantra for me for 2018 since New Year’s Eve… which was FIVE MONTHS AGO, and true to form, I haven’t been able to find the “perfect” one, so I’ve just let it sit in the back of my mind for months on end.

As I was sitting, writing this blog post, husband was next to me doing homework, and he randomly looks over at me and says, “Babe, want to go on a walk?”  We went on a walk, just right by our neighborhood, where we have walked and biked countless time before, and it was the most beautiful walk of my life.

So, next time you’re feeling… blah, or stressed, or unmotivated.  Maybe just – go on a walk.  (It’s a plus if it’s with your favorite human in the world too.)  💕

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